Someone recently shared this song with me, and I found I could relate to it very much, so I wanted to share it here.
Here are some of the lyrics:
“I’m gonna miss your first day of school
I’ll never see you turn that page
I’ll never see you in your graduation gown
And I’m never gonna see you coming of age
But you’ll always be my hope
You’ll always be my first light
You’re always gonna be mommy’s little girl
You’ll always be the strength I need to make it in this world
I only wish for one more day”
One more day would be so amazing. But in the end, nothing short of forever would be enough. One day we’ll have that forever with Madelyn. But for now, we will have to be satisfied to replay the memories in our mind of the 34 weeks we had with her in the womb, and the time we had with her after she was born. It’s hard to believe it’ll be a year so soon.
Thursday will mark the one year anniversary since they started inducing me, Saturday night it will be a year since she left us, and Sunday morning will mark one year since we held her in our arms for the last time.
We have finally decided what we are going to do to remember her life this Saturday. We are going to go spend some time at the cemetery, and then we’re going to do a balloon release for her, followed by eating cupcakes from the Cupcakery. It won’t be an easy day, but I hope to focus on the joy of her life rather than the sorrow of losing her. However, I don’t think the two can ever truly be separated.