Today I had my last OB checkup of this pregnancy. While I’m extremely thrilled and ready for Liam to arrive, I am a bit sad that this phase is ending. Although the last few weeks haven’t been without a few discomforts, and while pregnancy after loss can be very emotionally taxing, and while I’m very ready to get my normal-sized body back, I do love pregnancy, and I’m going to miss it.
Anyway, today the big news is that Liam is now fully engaged in my pelvis! I’m hoping this means there is still a chance I could go into labor on my own before Friday. Babies generally engage several weeks in advance in first pregnancies. But, in subsequent pregnancies, they usually don’t engage until much closer to labor. So while I’m still only at 1.5 cm dilated, and I’m not further effaced, I am encouraged by the fact that he has dropped!!
I am feeling such a wide array of emotions and would love to be able to sift through them and attempt to find words for them. But I won’t be doing that tonight. Tonight we have a few final things to do. Tomorrow night we’re staying in a hotel closer to the hospital. And then Friday we’ll be in the hospital. The next night I spend in my bed after tonight will be with a baby sleeping in a bassinet next to me. It’s hard for me to grasp that this really is happening. Once I get home and settled into my maternity leave, I hope to find the time to write a blog post to share everything, because I need to remember it all.
I probably won’t post again until we’re headed to the hospital! I will try to update as much as I can while there, but it all depends on how I feel. I will definitely let everyone know as soon as Liam is here!