I knew a day would come when this blog was no longer a place I felt the need to maintain frequently. It seems as though that day has come. A big part of this can be attributed to how busy we are these days. Writing, for me, is not about sitting down for 5 minutes and doing an update, though my most recent posts are definitely that. What makes writing enjoyable for me is the emotional force behind it, glazing each word with depth and realism that cannot be conveyed in an everyday state of mind. This type of writing requires going deeper within oneself, meditating on life, clearing the head, and letting one’s soul do the talking. Getting into this frame of mind requires a commitment, both of time and emotion. It’s a freeing place to be, and I do hope to work writing into my life again in the future. But, for now, there are other things pulling at me, and I must choose.
I have an energetic 3 year old boy who wants to play baseball, sing songs, and color. I have a 15 month old girl who wants to read books, snuggle (which also involves throwing anything in sight on the floor during this time), and play. I have yet to announce this here, but we have another baby boy due October 9, 2014, just a day after Madelyn’s due date nearly 5 years ago now. Oh, and we just got our final test result from genetics today – everything looks perfect and normal so far! I’m still working a full-time job, which keeps me away from home more than I’d like. And a year ago I finally decided to pursue a long-time photography passion, and have launched my first business. My website is http://www.heathermohrphotography.com. I invite you to check it out! And, last but far from least, I’ve been working with Sufficient Grace Ministries to build a work here in the St. Louis area. It’s been a slow process, slower than I’d like with so many other things happening in my life and only so much time available in a day, but I’m not giving up on that. I did accomplish obtaining my doula certification through Still Birthday and have gotten on the call list for one hospital. But I do need volunteers in this area, especially now that I’m expecting another child. If you know anyone who is interested in this area, please do send them my way.
And so through all of this, writing has taken a back seat. It makes me sad in a way, because, writing is what gave me the most peace while in my most intense stages of grief. But, I am finding peace in many other areas of my life right now. I’ll be the first to admit my life is far from serene. But it makes me happy. And I know writing will always be there for me as an outlet when I need it, as it always has been.